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~Wandering in the air~

Saturday, May 19, 2007

2:48 PM

I've been pondering a lot during these few weeks.
Thinking about my job, my life, my money... these endless materialistic stuffs just kept swirling around my head all the time.
I was lost in my directions a year ago. Apparently, I'm still lost.
I can't seem to find my own personality.
I can't seem to find my own interests.
I can't seem to know what I would like to do in the future.
I don't like my admin job scope also.
Everything just looked so bleak now.

Tend to keep complaining about my work all the time but come to think of it, am i really unhappy with my job scope or the company?
Both?
Salary is pathetic.
Environment is fast paced and bitchy.
Unhelpful colleagues.
Complaints, complaints, complaints...!!!
No wonder dear also find me whinny...but if i don't complain to you, whom can i tell?
My parents won't understand.
My sisters will just turn into a deaf ear and they have their own problems to settle.
My friends are equally lost but not some though.

I know some of you had told me that if i can't handle such things now, how can i cope in the future?
Other companies are equally stressful.
If i'm unhappy, then i should move on! Blar blar blar....
Yes yes yes...i know all these. In fact, I already knew what all of you are going to say.
But the thing is... I don't know what I want to do!
That is the problem.

Banking? I'm not exactly interested because i know nuts about finance, stocks, exchange, etc but the money is good.
Fashion? I'm having second thoughts right now but I still think i belong in this industry.
Sales? I'm not good at persuading people to buy leh. "If you want to buy, that's good. If you don't want, then it's okay." That's my mentality. I'm quite lazy by nature as well.

Thoughts and more thoughts...
When can I ever buy my first LOEWE bag?
When can I ever buy my Etro apparels?
When can I ever appear in magazine spreads where everyone knows me? (for the right reasons...)
When can I be RICH?
ARGH....
Am i being very inconfident of myself? Low-esteem?
"I know I'm have a certain confidence level in myself, maybe I have not yet to show it all out."

Recently, I kept committing some small, silly mistakes.
Yah...short memory kills!
I've already prepared a notebook to jot down the things i have to do all the time.
But sometimes, it just happens that you totally forgotten about that thingy.
It's quite upset for me though cos' I really want to prove myself to my boss that I am capable.
Especially the appraisal period is nearing...
But I was thinking, so what if my appraisal is good? No promotion, no increment, same job scope, more irrelevant job duties.
Kena sai....

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